Monday, February 27, 2006
Me = Boss
Emo saga aside.
On a lighter note, I am in NEED of a career change. Hmmm...Doesn't sound light. These are the reasons for inducing such thoughts ;
- no job satisfaction
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stability do NOT co-exist with the recent years of outsourcing employment
- tired of having to keep up with latest skills and knowledge
- tired of contracts
- sick of solving computer/network problems
- especially tired with panicky over-reacting cuckoos (those IT illiterates)
- and most of all....SICK of working for people
I almost signed up for the BA in English/Journalism programme. Such a big leap considering that I'm of the IT background. But that isn't the reason of my doubts. Education is always a good thing. But realistically, the aftermath of graduation does not guarantee me a relevant job with compensating paycheck. Pessimistic? Not really. Just happen to know more-than-we-want-to-admit number of people whom are of a Degree or higher qualification holder that are either jobless or job hopping due to contracts or ends up with a job that they are over-qualified but underpaid with. But the pattern is usually that the grads are of a foreign Uni or a private institute. Those I know from local Unis are better off. So the option of me spending another almost $20k over something that will lead me to join the not-so-bright-future queue is very very daunting.
That is not the only point of hesitation. Another is the self status that has made a change since early this month. From a Miss to Mrs. And who knows, it could change again to a M.O.M. As much as I would LOVE to get the further education I want, it will no longer be about me me me. Cause I will never know if I am needed to stay at home for a period of time. What happens then? Yet again, this is not the ultimate factor to why the doubts deepen.
On one hand, I can stay at the current job. I'm not unhappy. Just not complete. Who is anyway? But what's in store down the road in 5 years? Not much difference in wage and job scope? Even more daunting. Or I can be selfless and stick to what I have for the sake of my family.
My long time dream in running something of my own (even if it is on a small scale) could be the major influence to the earlier hesitations. Like the Hubb said "It's better if you save up money for capital or take relevant courses in your choice of venture rather than a degree that has no promises." Of course running a business has its downfall too. But not working for anyone else is a much desired thought.
Choices are not kind with me this time. So I guess these options below are mmmm... promising?

Submit slavery to current situation.

Save up $$$$. (Hairy hands not included)

The BOSS of ME.
InsyaAllah. Amin.
Posted at 11:35 AM
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Missers Lonely
Today is the Monday that I dread. I venci! Wake up morning-morning to help him get ready. It's a good thing we stayed over at my parents'. 10 mins drive to Terminal 2. While he is looking awake and smartly dressed for his work trip, I look
basi and half asleep with dishelved hair. I still look relatively cute. Depends on how you define cute that is. Hah! Hey but I did wash my face and brushed my teeth ok. And I shamelessly asked him to kiss my cheeks in the presence of my parents just before he stepped out the door...but nooooo I didn't get my kiss!! Malu depan Mak konon. Ciz. The moment my mum walked to the kitchen to wave daddy bye-bye, hubbs patah balik to the door
macam lipas kudung and pecked me! Yay!! Dear Hubb, next time I don't care where I ask for a kiss. Must die-die give!!
Going to work from Tampines makes me feel re-single all over again. Nyah nyah nyah. I am so not loving the crowd at the MRT station. I'm feeling miserable already. Bad enough that it's MONDAY. Sigh.
Tummy don't feel good. I think Shit is about to make it's grandeur exit. This time it's not the cause of anxiety or nervousness. It's loneliness. :(
Execusey me. *pooof to the jamban*
Posted at 8:44 AM
Friday, February 24, 2006
TGIF - Tak Gerek It's Friday
It's Friday. On an unusual note, I'm not looking forward to it as much
(refer: Title). Orang giler je tak suka weekend. Eh suka sukaaaa. But just not this weekend. 2 more days and the Hubster lobster will be outstation. For a week! Boo hoo. And to think that his FIRST b'day as my husband he has to celebrate it on a foreign soil away from me. P'tuih to his manager! This feeling sucks big time. To make it suckier, everyday the past 2 weeks was working-late period for him. Sometimes I secretly hate his job. Shhhhh.
But somehwere deeeeeeeeeeeeeeep in me is actually thinking that this "away" period will have a positive effect on us. Gives us some time on our own and opportunity to miss one another and perhaps reflect if we have taken each other for granted.
I'm soooo not going to stay in that huge house all by myself. I don't mind lah but the walls will be bored to death listening to me. Anyway, I'd rather use the time to spend it with my family instead. I miss my parents. Miss my old room. Miss the hall, the kitchen, the smelly toilet. And mostly, I miss my annoying brothers!
Tomorrow will be another long Saturday for us. Bringing along the heavy album from one house to another. It's a stupid tradition if you ask me. I mean, newly weds need the weekends to rest especially soon after the wedding saga. Not travelling from one end to another. Especially those that work and live on their own. Thank goodness he has to fly off Monday morning so we are excused on Sunday. Bleaaaargh!!
There was a point of time I was looking forward to be a bride. And now, 'pengantin basi' is a very appealing state to be.
Posted at 9:09 AM
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Techni-xion
Thanks to 3 of my cousins, we have a toaster that can toast, roast, Bbq..watever you want to call it. We've had baked potatoes, black pepper BBQ chicken and Honey spice glazed chicken since we moved in the house. And since then, I have asked the hubster to move the oven into the cabinet section. But for the meantime, we had placed it on the kitchen top. Which by the way takes too much space. It has been more than 2 weeks and the oven is still sitting there stealing my space that is much needed when cooking. So I decided to take actions into my own hands.
No thanks to the contractor for the tiny hole by the oven section just enough for the cable. Which means the head-plug (I don't know what it is called lah) has to be un-screwed. For an only girl to grow up in a household where every handy things are done by the brothers or father; this was quite a challenge. So I took out the toolbox which I bought for Mr Hubster. Carefully choose the tip and start unscrewing the gold colored screws. Capturing the insides with my photogrpahic memory. And begin dismantling the parts. I placed the oven where it is meant to be and squeeze the cable into the tiny hole which is just enough for a finger to poke through. Begins the re-mantling (if there is such a word). Somehow one of the insides that looks like a tiny battery does not fit nicely. The other 2 is sitting in fine. And my not-so-photographic memory ran out of 'film' lah suddenly, so I forgot the correct position. And what best to solve it with? Unscrew the rice cooker's head-plug lah. Oooooh that's how it's placed. Voalaaaaa!! Done!! To avoid incidents, testing is always recommended. I ran to the living room after switching the power on. Takot meletop. But it seems to be fine.
What an accomplishment! Again, for a girl who had the men to do all the handy things, this was such a proud achievement. *doin' the jiggy* Mr Hubster just came back from work and he went.."waaaah pandai seeeeeeeeeeeeh!" Pasal dah malas tunggu tu sebab jadi pandai. Hmmmmmfffft.
Posted at 9:26 AM
Monday, February 20, 2006
Neverending Rush-Rush
The weekend was crazy lah. Newly-weds so
DO NOT get enough rest for the next..hmm geee I don't know....few months perhaps. Maybe because we are living on our own so that means doing everything by ourselves without the help from parents. Friday night we got our
album so that meant visits to his aunts and uncles lah on Saturday. And the weather was so scary. Lucky for us, we only hv 1 album. Tu pon quite heavy. Can't imagine if we have to drag along 3 or 4 albums (which is the norm). Errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrk.
Sunday was worst. Hot sticky afternoon. Rushed to pick up our
wedding DVDs at Tampines. Which was superb by the way. Worth every penny. And then rush off to
Wan and Dillah's wedding thankfully at Tampines too. Which was sooooooooooo
pink. The pelamin was so beautiful. In simpler words..so DIVA!! Then off to his auntie's place at Bedok Resv. Watched the DVD for the first time. And then off back to Tampines to my parents place. Watched the DVD again. Which after that we all together left for
Amirah's Grill for a farewell dinner for Auntie Mariam before she fly off back tonite. All this endless running here and there for the past weeks causing me extreme exhaustion, almost caused me to have fever yesterday. Popped 2 panadol pills and that helped a little.
I have not been to Amirah's grill since they shifted to Pahang St. I can't forget their delicious soup. Thank goodness they still have it today. Although their menu are influenced by western dishes, they still have to-die-for Hummus and Kofta! Their service and food are a far cry compared to the lousy Al Majlis. Although we always keep coming back. For God-knows-why reasons..I don't know myself. And the sofa room was so comfy and lovely. And my granny and aunts got to watch our DVD in that room. How cool.
Anyway,
CONGRATS to Dillah and Wan. May you have a lifetime of blissful marriage painted with love, tolerance and endurance. Not forgetting be blessed with PLENTY of cute juniors!!!! Sekarang beban kau dah over. Boleh rileks. But guess what...the exhaustion is not even close to over beb! So hang in there. Yesterday alone, I watched our DVD 4 times!! I just love the way it was done. There is a blooper section at the end. Hilarious! And my dad was like "E eh ni pengantin menggeletis!!!!!!"
Dah penat-penat reach home almost midnight...still had the energy to watch the video one last time before off to bed. Heh!!

Aunt Mariam, guess-who??? and Aunt Thari.
Ok I just had to include this picture. We had a belly dance session before the mak andam came on the
nikah day
. Impromptu. And why censored you might ask..cause the tudung wasn't on me lah. Duh.
Oh btw, PINK seem to be the color these days for weddings. One thing Dillah and me have in common; MANIPULATING our partners in wearing PINK on our big day! Poor guys. Hahahaha.
Posted at 10:40 AM
Friday, February 17, 2006
Just the beginning
Thank u everydobi for the compliments and well wishes (refer: previous entry).
Marriage is certainly not daily bed of roses. More like daily bed of messy bedsheets. When I was single, and late for work..heck I don't give a crap in making the bed tidy. Oh no no..that can't happen now. For some reasons, living in my own house makes me more of a neat freak. Not that I was a messy freak before. But I'm just way more particular. Like I have to make sure all the kitchen cabinets have that anti-bugs paper laid first before the utensils come in. All the loose things in the refrigerator are nicely packed in tupperwares. Cookwares are properly stacked and organize according to categories. Anything not placed back to where it belongs can drive me nuts. And that is driving the husband nuts-er. Clothes in the wardrobes are divided in sections ; his and mine ; skirts, pants, t-shirts, home clothes, tops etc. That goes for the washroom too. I shall stop here before I scare the freak out of myself. I need that freak.
The most interesting part is having clarity on your beloved's habits and moods. While I'm the chirpy morning person who can still crack jokes at dawn, he on the other hand is an epic of gloomy funeral-stricken face. Hmmffft. Comes to dusk
(in words of his when we caught a midnite movie for the first time ; "u tak rock aah"), I'm the yawny sleepyhead and suddenly he has never been so alive. Cet!
This morning I had yet another example of his not-a-morning-alert-person ; "Yang..look at that girl, she dresses like you. Except that she has no tudung and her
short is skirt." And I couldn't help talking back at him with re-shuffled words in every sentence all the way to work. Haha!
Posted at 9:27 AM
Monday, February 13, 2006
Old New-s
It has been over a week. I had no time and energy to blog. Plus I was deprived of my own wedding photos. Hence was refrained from doing any updates.
Here comes the Pengantin Basi;

Took me few hours to do this collage. Too many pics lah to choose from. Spoilt with choices!! Sheeesh. Anyway, the event was a success, Alhamdulillah. For both sides. With just minor hiccups here and there.
I would not have survive the extremely exhausting 2 days of strenous smiling if it had not been for some people. Hey it's not as glamorous as it looks to be the "Raja Sehari". Damn I won't do it all over again. So nerve wrecking.
Without these people, the event would not have been a success that was beautifully painted with memories of a lifetime.
Credits:
My beloved family and in-laws for their sacrifices.
Fatimah aka Kiki (my nickname for her) my beautiful bridesmaid and cousin whom I would be a disaster without.
Ustaz Noor Bin Rawi for having mercy on darling husband.
Aunt Thari for flying all the way from Canada just for my wedding.
Aunt Mariam flew in from Scotland surprising us at the doorstep the night before nikah.
All my relatives from KL for making an appearance.
My neighbours for giving my parents the extra hands.
Kak Suraya for the Saturday makeup.
Kak Rosnani from Inai Bridal for making me look oh-so radiant and lovely.
Ummi Rafe'ah and workers for the POWDERFUL food and decor.
Zoul for his gifted touch on the bride's room.
The guys from our Klique Images club for the wonderful photos.
Joe and Partner for the video I have yet to see. heh.
Anis (Innovazionne) for her magic of beautifying gifts.
My hunky cousins for washing the dishes on Saturday. heh.
My colleagues for the $550 Ikea voucher.
And of course to all my relatives, friends, and everyone that made the day so colorful with their presence. Thank you all for the gifts too.
Oh oh and not forgetting my dear hubby for looking so dashingly handsome and granting my wish to wear SHOCKING pink! hehehe.
And the usual took place. Path crossing that lead to discoveries. The not-so-big world revolved around my wedding :
1. Director of the IT firm that produce my payroll is related to my cousin
2. My lawyer colleague is my hubby's JC mate
3. A colleague's auntie is my mum's kursus mate
4. 2 of my photographers share mutual friends with me
3. Hubby's close girl cousin is my first maternal uncle's Secretary
Etc etc etc. Aiyaiyai!
Oh........and guess what??????????????????????????
Without Henna decorated hands, karaoke, bunga pahar and sirih dara/junjung (all the things that created a fuss); everything still went smoothly well. Syukur Alhamdulillah!!
Posted at 5:48 PM
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
One Sweet Day..
Not today lah. Today SOUR day...cause I'm at work. Ptuih!! Leave starts tomorrow. So many things to do and the internet has to be so slow. Macam Penyu!! Lembab! Ciz!!
Amazing how I had time to blog all this while. Not that amazing lah actually. On-the-job blog. Steal bones lah dey! No wait.....Multi-task is the actual case here.
My room is almost ready. Last night I had to sleep in a funny position so as not to knock that scallop off the ceiling. Ok that sounds like as if I'm sleeping on the ceiling. Whatever. I refuse to sleep on the floor. Or anywhere else for that matter. It's only few more days left and I would like to savour every moment of my current singleton queen-sized bed. It will miss me terribly I tell you. I can hear it whimper soflty at night begging me to stay.
The room which will be formerly-known-as-mine soon will definitely miss me terribly too. It will soon be taken over by my older brother. He has proudly presented his wardrobe in it already. Marking territory lah beb!
Hopefully things are smooth with repairable hiccups (if any) this weekend. InsyaAllah.
Anticipating to see friends and relatives this weekend. Stomach twirling while I am typing this entry.
Forgive me if there are any shortcomings. And forgive me if I am so dazed to acknowledge your presence.
See you guys this Sunday...My One Sweet Day. From a simple bride-to-be.
Adios.
Ps: I have not seen him for almost a month...let's hope he don't spot a moustache or extra spare tyres around the waist as a surprise. Heh!
Posted at 12:25 PM