What is it with the Ex-es and timing? No news for a while and popped out of nowhere all of a sudden. Rang me up to tune in to the radio. Dedication show was on. Then DJ mentioned your name goin' out to mine and to listen to the words of this song. Sure I felt sad for a moment. Sad for you for feeling that way. But I'm already happy where I am. Heck the song is catchy thoh!

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Nothing feels worst than having more than enough people around you
but yet loneliness still creeps in deeper. Been there.
Whatever it is, all the best from me to you.
You'll find yours.

Could find no words to describe what the weekend was like. It was just a course but an unexpected path to discoveries. Reflections were made. Views were exchanged. Weaknesses was stressed. But most of all, the things I had seen as flaws were presented as strengths. And points elaborated. Undoubtedly speechless.

Exhausted but it was all worth it. On top of that, a few days away from home was invigorating yet mentally therapeutic.

Anyway enjoy this song from the 80's. Floating in nostalgic moments never fail to strike a chord inside.

It hits home everytime this happen. Why? I don't have answers. It felt good though. But I am certain of tomorrow. I think.

Long weekend is here. Plans for a short getaway has to be cancelled because of the course. Sigh. I'll have my break soon. I hope. Before all the insanity begins. Just the thought of the flow makes me shudder. No! Must take charge! Errrrr.

Anyhoo, some things I snapped in the bus this morning.
(Courtesy of Nokia 6670)

Endless. Cramps. Weak. Pain. Overloaded with things to do. Refraining from panicking. Get organised. Checklist. Dates. Resources. Sigh. Time. Cashflow. Shrug.

Tired. Very. Jelly knees. But it was just a weekend course. Sigh. But the lectures were definitely eye-opening and spiritually meditating too.

On top of the lethargicness read something that just brings an enormous amount of sadness in me. Yet we can't ask why. Never. Staring into blank spaces. Teary eyed. Imagine wanting to call your loved one but he/she is not answering your calls, not because he/she couldn't get to the phone, but because they will never be able to anymore...

Talk about resting in peace....

Shovelling my way through while having to joust from elbow to elbow. An infinite struggle with an indefinite end. 'Loathe crowds' is an understatement. From the nearby HDB bus-stops to the MRT cabin's entrace to the shopping mall to the escalator to the theatre to the recreation parks to the beaches to the supermarkets to exhibitions and even to the public toilets. Enlighten me with more please. And I dare to say that it gets worst by day. Seems to me that Singapore government is more concerned about its economic growth than the citizen's interest and well being. What's the point of increasing it's population only to infest every place that brings leisure to the people. It's already bad enough that the list of things to do here sums up to a more than pathetic attempt. I remember my younger days when the population here is only about 1.5 to 2 million. Now the current statistics match the game plan they had for us. We exceeded their expectations. BUT with the low birthrate going on, I would love to see what is going to happen in years to come and what will be done to overcome it. Uninvited crowds is just ONLY ONE from the many things I love to hate here on our soil.

Bottomline, I abhor, detest, disdain and everything along that line with regards to staying and ageing with grace here in SG. Can't wait to leave.

Crowds .... The only thing that makes the weekend a despair.

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Last Saturday feeling the very Amazing Race minus the competitors and free flights and also Survivor minus the immunity challenges and elimination rounds.


Trekking session.

Reached destination at 7.50 am.
We took Route 4 (Rated difficult).
Started to jog @ 8.45 am

Baru start dah kena tinggal!!



And his friends were delighted with our visit!!!
Stopped jogging @ 9:45 am and the jungle trail begins.

Intersection of plan : We took the Tree Top bridge.



We walked and walked up and down the trail non-stop for hours.
1.8 km to finishing point.



@ 12.35 pm - Last pit stop!!
Finally!!


Quite an accomplishment. We walked without any breaks in between at all. And I can't forget the fact that he kept on asking me whether I can survive the trail repeatedly and I could have gagged his mouth. I am no Miss Daisy! Oh and guess who kept on talking about food during the journey ?? HIM!! And yes its him too that started to complain about his sole aching and thighs feeling the pinch. HAH! Oh there was schools on excursion too. Then Mr Macho *cough-bullshit-cough* here shamelessly released his gas few metres behind me then ran up to catch up with me. Then few seconds later we could hear the boys went "Eeeeee bau taik!!"

Wahaha...we laughed so loudly i think we scared some people ahead of us. He was really suprised that I was still energetic and not in a whining mode at all. He underestimated me! Not even a single whiny puny attack from me.

Headed home after lunch @ Toa Payoh. A goner once I put my body to rest. And I was a stiff moron for the whole of Sunday. Slipping in and out of la la land the whole day like I was on some kind of drugs. Wasted. Legs still recuperating now. Feels good nonetheless.

Planning for another challenge soon. Any ideas?

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Wanita, Apakah yang kamu fikirkan? Kerjaya? Fesyen? Tanggungjawab?"

Ahli Panel - Puan Hamidah Bahashwan,
Ustazah Nur Khadijajh Ramli & Ustazah Asmak Awang

Date : Saturday, 12 March 2005 Time : 1.30 PM - 6.00 PM
Venue : Masjid Assyakirin (Taman Jurong)
Ticket : $20.00
(Buy 4 tickets get 1 FREE!! Door sales ticket @ $25.00
Includes goodie bags, Notes & Refreshments)
Highlights : Fashion Competition!
Best Dress Award!
Special Performances!

Enquiries & Purchase of Tickets call
Masyithah @ 9662 8503 or Annisha @ 9836 3544

A collaboration with Wak Tanjong Youth, Fityan, Assyakirin & NPMSS.

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Do support this event to make it a success. 1 of my favourite speaker and fellow ex-colleague, friend, sister -> Hamidah Bahashwan is 1 of the Panels. She is an excellent and well respected motivational speaker.

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Tidak perlu mencari teman secantik Balqis andai diri tidak sehebat Sulaiman.
Mengapa mengharap teman setampan Yusof jika kasih tidak setulus Zulaika.
Tidak perlu mencari teman seteguh Ibrahim andai diri tidak sekuat Hajar.

Dan mengapa didamba teman hidup sesempurna Muhammad jika ada keburukan pada dirimu.
Bimbinglah dirimu dan terimalah kekurangan itu sebagai keunikan dan carilah kebaikan pada dirinya.
Bersyukurlah dipertemukan dengannya dan berdoalah agar dia menjadi milik kita.



By Aida

Karaoke 4 jam! And I did all of the mentioned in the previous entry. And to my surprise, I did most of the singing too!! Penat ehk jadik artis jadi-jadian. Melalak je kerja!! Terkinja-kinja. Menggeletis!! *Aduuuuuuh Takmo Maaaaak*

Kenapa berapa hari ni sungguh the malas eh. The weekend totally sucked the living daylights out of me. It was such a blast it blasted every ounce of my energy away. Nak bukak topic pon kepala otak malas nak berfikir, jari malas nak type (padahal tengah type tau ni), mata pon malas nak memandang komputer ni. Pasal cuaca agaknye tak? Ke memang aku tetiba kena penyakit yang menyebabkan daripada Vitamin M(alas) yang berlebihan? Macam tak terdaya langsung gitu.

Pepagi buta naik MRT tadi aku pon terlelap sampai mulot tenganga bagaikan tiada esok. Bila tersadar rasa kering je lidah ni. Ciz!