Monday, January 31, 2005

2 Lonely friends in the MRT

Dah lah tu...tak usah lah kau kenangkan yang lalu..

Aku memang sentiasa posing tanpa lesen!

For mummy dearest..
There was only 2 of us so who did you expect to see?

Posted at 2:41 PM

Sunday, January 30, 2005

Sahutan

Memandangkan kotak-pekik membenarkan perkataan yang terhad, disini saya mengambil masa untuk menyahut kepada pembaca-pembaca yang dikasihi.

Jewel : yep yep got the power90 dvds. ordered thru the net. it's a good programme, totally idiot-proof. 4 any1 btw 4 - 99 (n beyond even!)

to Jewel : the thing is if i were to order..the dvd would probably end up as a junk stashed somewhere in my room.

aishah : Good day sis!

to aishah : The weekend is over...uweeeeeeek :(

Rya : Awak pul kenal nye Adha eh?? uh huh yg Bhumiband tu

to Rya : kenal tu tidak..setakat virtually je..heh

shazila : thank you for dropping by my blog. love your layout.simplicity!

to shazila : ur velcome!! simplicity is my middle name. heh

jewel : err i didnt follow their diet program. juz eat low carb. did atkins once for 2 months, lost 10kgs but its tough. juz avoid the evil white stuff

to jewel : atkins..hmmm now where hv i heard that. white stuff? sounds dodgy...whats that? excuse my sunday morning idiosyncrasies..

FloatingLilac : That signboard in China..ehehe...so klakar..

to FloatingLilac : hehehhe...kekek kan... tak boleh carry..

Ari : To SABARIAH THAMBI (S.T) hence Es-T, Kau jgn nak action modest dgn aku depan blogfans aku ehk? Oooohh.. kau ni pandai bermain lidah eh? Meh sini aku cili!!!

to Ari : sedap ehk nama aku kau murtad kan!! ciz!! Aku tak action modest ah..abeh dah sememangnye aku sebegitu... :P ... bila masa je aku ada blogfans... kau punye tu hah sampai traffic jam!! bluwek!

rawini : heya! just visitin' urs.. woo so brown.. owh girl, i love chocolate. I m addict to it.. ahahaahah

to rawini : I is addicting to it too... hehehehehe

Sekian Wabil La Hitaufik' Walhidayat.

Posted at 10:24 AM

Friday, January 28, 2005

On the contrary of making sense ;

'ROTFL'

Signboards found in China. I'm still deriving what the last one means in their context of chosen words. Either its attracting customers in another way of saying "Heck with the $$.. grab them for free!!" Or "Gawd-damnit! Certain price too high to resist!" Peculiar sexual tantrics are totally irrelevant.

These only remind me of my verbal blunders. Hurhurhurhurhur

Posted at 10:27 AM

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

Breakaway

Mentally thrashing pieces of the recollected.

Back then, I have spent too much time and energy putting others above me to the point of losing self-identity while all my wants and needs become non-existent to others. And now I am facing the repercussion of that vicious saga. A turmoil that created this utterly egoistic and self-centered person. Lost momentum.

Hate what I see reflected in the mirror. Noone at this point can match the hatred I have for myself.

Getting used to the substantial solitude period has an ugly aftermath. Trying very hard to bring down the wall by bits.

Posted at 10:02 AM

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

Violated Soul

Uninvited yesteryear lingers
Loose ends of the unaccomplished
Leaving trails of haunting enigma
Deliberate ignorance to the apparent
Revealing hidden denial cocoons

__________________________

Thank you Maryam for helping me put things into perspective. Wish you don't have to be thousands of miles away. Heart you deep deep.

Posted at 10:36 AM

Monday, January 24, 2005

~~Ain't No~~ Sunshine When She's Gone

So much for 'no-goverment' policy today. The good part is no one to push all the work load to me but the downside is I am all alone to run around running the show. Thank goodness the incompetent software is not giving me any problems today YET. This 1-man show will be the case for the next 2 weeks. The lady boss is away on leave. *REJOICING with a capital R!* Actually I have no direct boss here but I sort of assist her. The position I'm in right now is quite complexed and would be of no use to further explain.

On one hand I'm ecstatic that she is away, yet on another hand I shudder at the thought of having my time robbed by the entire level. Then again it makes no difference with or without her presence. I have been the only one who has been doing rather almost eveything.

So far nothing critical has happened the first half of today. And this entry is the only time my butt is glued to the leathered seat. On top of the aching body, praying hard that the rest of today will sail smoothly.

Posted at 1:51 PM

Thursday, January 20, 2005

In Between the Border

Is it possible in pointing out someone's weaknesses or flaws or whatever you want to call it and yet at the same time not having the intentions of wanting to change the person? So what's the initial objective during the event of highlighting the factors?

What's the difference between not believing in changing a person into someone he/she is not and wanting him/her to take on certain attributes that you fancy?

My perception of changing a person :

1. To suppress a person from his/her normality at being a loud or hyper person probably into an opposite mode of a more composed being.

2. Him not approving the way she dresses and set wardrobe guidelines for her to abide or vice versa.

3. His/her attempt to eliminate a certain hobby/habit. For e.g: Socialising, Night out with buddies, A must soccer session, Smoking, Finger-nails nibbling, Nose digging etc.

My examples of 'taking on certain attributes that you fancy':

1. Wishing the partner would see the light side of things and inject humour when you are stressed or sharing difficulties.

2. Would prefer if he/she put in more effort and time when it comes to communication.

3. Want him/her to be more proactive in actions like giving you more than just a call a day.

At some point, all of these above actually seem like they simply belong to the same category. When situations induce the fine line in between to become vastly vague, the clarity of the difference makes no sense no more. And that alone can lead to other issues.

Posted at 10:30 AM

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Overwrite

Day almost over.

Outstanding issues settled.

Liberation & relief.

Unhappy manager. I could care less.

Walking out.

Posted at 5:48 PM

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Talk to THE HAND!!!

First of all its not even my project or undertakings. Second of all, its an unreliable farked-up program not sophiscated enough to cater a big organisation with simultaneous users! The blardy company is only willing to pay few miserable thousand of dollars hence be prepared to encounter endless error messages of the not-professionally-designed system. Good enough that I assisted the installation and testing stage before it was implemented. Now whenever anything goes wrong my inbox is flooded by staffs complaining and whining. And the best part is the department in-charge dump all this on to me!! Forward all the mails with regard to the stupid software! This has wasted too much of my time and it happens every forsaken minute of the day!! Gawd-damn-it!!

An explosion is about to erupt within me. Forecasting disasterous major word vomit.

*Clenching Fist*

Posted at 10:26 AM

Monday, January 17, 2005

Cabalistic Osmosis

Not in the best mode of whirling emotions.

Unjustified need of periodical solitudity.

Minimal verbal voltage.

Needs no explanation.

~

Posted at 9:12 AM

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

Every Man's Dream Wifey..

I wonder how it will look like for the female of the species....
Another evident of this male dominated world.
*Pout with hand on hips*

Posted at 6:53 PM

Monday, January 10, 2005

Selenge + Bachin = #%!@^&

Hari ni hari bodoh buat semua. Benda remeh-temeh pon suruh aku datang kat desk dorang. Dari pagi sampai lah petang. Yang ending ni lagik yang paling aku nak muntah darah. CONTROL PANEL hilang. Bilang aku kat jamban plak tu. Nak solat pon tak senang. Ceh aku pon menuju ke PC dia. CONTROL PANEL ada pe!! Oh screensaver pon dia nak remove. Ok done. Back to my desk. Ring ring...telefon berbunyi. "Hello, Fiona ada?" Wrong number! Ok ok aku digress plak. It's actually TASKBAR yang disappear, bukan CONTROL PANEL!!! And and and and.... she meant to remove WALLPAPER and not SCREENSAVER. Enuff' said. That explains why I unplugged my direct line phone wire from 3.45pm to 4.30pm. And that wasn't all the stupidity that filled my day.

Blur Out.

~

Posted at 5:53 PM

Friday, January 07, 2005

Bling Bling No More..

TGIF!!! The weekend is here. This week goes from Mon to Fri faster than I can recite A-Z and Z-A backwords. Over nye!! I can still feel the blues violating the void I had on Mon while I drag myself to work.

I have a new mission! While TV Ads are the medium promoting credit cards with the ever-so-famous line "Never leave home without it", my mission is the exact opposite. As of this morning, all my cards that access to my bank accounts were left at home! And these are the reasons ;

i. Nokia 6670 (without contract)

ii. 7 tops

iii. 1 Tote bag

iv. 2 skirts

v. 3 Earrings

vi. 4 Scarves

All that in just a span of almost a month. With broke breaks in between of course. I'm not usually this spendthrift but I have no idea what has come over me. *Frowns*. And that list does not include other things like x'mas gifts and necessities. Let's see how long I can survive without zapping or signing. Desperate situation calls for desperate measure before I declare bankruptcy.

Posted at 3:49 PM

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Geeks Wish List

I wish real life would have options and tools like a Computer..

1) 5 minutes ago your friend was traveling to office at 80 mph in your brand new car. Now your friend is traveling to hospital at double the speed in an ambulance. You wish there was 'UNDO' in life!

2) You are already late, and your key is missing, You wish there was 'FIND TOOL' in life!

3) You are a bankrupt, after investing in some weird business, You wish there was 'REBUILD ALL' in life!

4) The train is so crowded that you cannot get anywhere near that nicegirl at the other end, You wish there was 'ZOOM AND VIEW FULL SCREEN' in life!

5) One day you realize that you are turning bald, You wish there was 'CUT & PASTE' in life.. (then after that can edit with Photoshop...hehehehhehe)

6) When I am unwell and needs a visit to the doctor but am broke at the moment, I wish there is a 'RUN-ANTI-VIRUS' and 'QUARANTINE' in life!

7) When I go for job interviews and there is a need to be multilingual, I wish I can just switch my language proficiency from 'EN' to 'ZH (Chinese - Singapore)'

8) After marriage you realize that there is bound to be a mismatch, You wish there was an 'EVALUATION PERIOD' or at least a 'SAMPLE DOWNLOAD' or a 'DEMO VERSION'!

9) Whenever things go wrong despite your best efforts especially when you bring up your kids the best way you know how, You wish there is a 'DETECT AND REPAIR' in life!

10) For husbands who have trouble getting it from the wives, oh how they wish there is a 'PLUG AND PLAY' in life! (haha the word is WISH!)

Oh this can just go on and on. I'm UNSTOPPABLE. Nampak sangat aku kekurangan kerja pagi ni! Network is ok and nobody complaining about their computer.

Ok I spoke to soon, the network xerox scanner is down!! Shucks!!

Apesal lah ada orang tangan gatal go and move an entire shared folder from the network drive dah tu panic!!!!

Zoom out.

Posted at 11:32 AM

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

Puzzle or Puzzled ?

Happy New Year = Selamat Tahun Baru

Does Selamat have more than 1 meaning that I don't know of? Sure do sound funny if it is 'Bahagia Tahun Baru' or 'Gembira Tahun Baru'. But there's nothing funny if it is 'Safe New Year'.

Happy Birthday = Selamat Hari Jadi

Safe Day Make. Yucksy Daisy! Ok that's a horrendous result of a direct translation. What about Gembira Hari Lahir? Riang Hari Lahir or Hari Lahir Riang.

And I'm not making any sense to myself. A result deriving from having too much free time in the office TODAY which is a rare event. Notice how I emphasise the word today? Under-delegated. Overpaid. NOT!!!

Posted at 2:51 PM

Monday, January 03, 2005

Digital Get Down

A number change to the calendar. Never had much effect on me as I customarily spend it in bed sleeping. Same goes for resolutions. What's the point in having any if it all just snowball every year. 2004 was a year filled with numerous disasters, elevating joy and simply indifferent encounters. So here goes a recap of the Good, Bad and Ugly ;

1. Endless of projects
2. New additions to friends list
3. Return of a delusional stalker
4. Smitten over someone
5. Exams, exams and exams
6. Finally a closed chapter with SAE
7. My best friend's wedding
8. Reunion with an ex
9. Marks a year with 'Cip Cukai and the gang'
10. In search of a different avenue
11. Soul searching
12. Short holiday trip with the stOinked
13. Near death car accident across the border
14. Back injury
15. Post-traumatic disorder
16. 24 hours resignation
17. Being with a forbidden person
18. Membership to the jobless crew
19. Divided stOinked
20. Lost friends
21. Back injury worsen
22. Due retribution
24. Job search break
25. Intervention of the freelance master
26. Reunite with old mates
26. Heartfelt amendments with her
27. Inner peace
28. Submissing to parent's happiness
29. Unexpected reconcilation of the stOinked
30. Had a taste of teaching secondary students
31. That happiness had a tragic ending
32. Conversion to Cookies Taukeh during Ramadhan
33. Celebrate Syawal in KL
34. Glimmer of hope in job search begins to get vague
35. Surprise surprise and desk bound returns
36. Age + 1 = wisdom (with percentage of cockiness and everything else..hehe)
37. Closing the year with the biggest most valuable gift ever received -> My Addictive Delirium!

Having all that said and done, looking forward for other challenges. And baby, Come What May! Heh!